Eternal
In Loving Memory
I don’t even know where to start
I don’t even know what to say
I can’t put into words
How I truly feel
Bear with me as my heart speaks
What my mind can’t process
And what my mouth refuses to utter
My face hurts
From the never-ending tears
My eyes throbbing
And burn red
My ducts run dry
Yet tears never cease flowing
My face
Typically worn with a smile
Now bears a stoic countenance
I try to look for the
Good
In everything
But my eyes filter it all out
My mind still
Unable to process what entered
My ears
Blocking my senses
I feel numb
Paralyzed
Unseen by the world
I’ve never felt so
Insignificant
And small
None of my questions
Seem to have answers
None of my problems
Seem to have a solution
My mind races
A million miles per second
As the world rotates
Slower than molasses
They say that time brings healing
I feel as if time has been
Paused
I wish I could believe that
But my skepticism refuses any
Logic or reason
I try to stay strong
I try to show everyone
That I’m fine
That I’ll get through this all
I know myself better than anyone
I can’t even lie to
Myself
Let alone to anyone else
My clouded tears
Fall from my face
And fill the paint pallet
That The Creator
Strokes on the bird’s body
My heart bled dry
Stains the lily petals
Leaving beautiful streaks of
Burgundy
Ornamenting the once barren flower bed
To my Brother
The messenger
The soft dove
Fluttering peacefully in the summer sun
Spreading its pure wings
Olive branch between its beak
Transforming life wherever he flies
To my lovely Sister
The sweet lily
That never fades or falters
Providing light in any environment
Brightening up any garden
A few petals have withered
And descended slowly back to the
Earth
From where they came
Until we meet again
May your precious souls
Rest in Eternal Peace
