Graduation
So,
I graduated today.
Finally
Completed undergrad
I hope I’m done with school
If you didn’t already know
I hate school
Everyone said
College would be
The best experience
Of our lives
No one said
That it would also be the
Worst
No one warned me
Of the sleepless nights
Of the lonely nights
Of the hopeless nights
No one told me it would be this hard
College did suck
And it’s definitely something
I would never relive
(Unless we talking big cash)
But I’m glad I still
Stuck through with it
I remember being on the brink
Of giving up
Almost dropping out
The days I barely ate
The days I had one cent to my name for
Days
Weeks
Months
At a time
The days I wanted everything to stop
But I had those
Who wouldn’t let me
Who refused to let me
Who made sure I didn’t stop
Who made sure I kept on going
Never was really good at talking
To The Man Upstairs
But I know
He was with me
Every step of the way
That last drop of hope
Of motivation
Of perseverance
Didn’t come from me
But from the prayers of those who loved
Me
They say it takes a village
That saying never made sense to me
Until now
Now I know exactly what they meant
Yeah
My name is on that diploma
But this isn’t just my degree
This is our degree
This is your degree
Without them
Without you
I wouldn’t be standing here
At this milestone
To say
“I did it. We did it.”
I’m not good with words
I’m not good at accepting help
I’m not good at accepting praise
But as these tears of pain
Relief
Joy
Stream down my face
As the words refuse to leave my
Stammering lips
Just know
That despite the lack of words
I may have
I am expressing the biggest form
Of thankfulness
And gratitude
I’m not as excited
As I thought I should be
More relieved at that
I’m not living the dream
Of a newly grad
Throwing up my cap and tassel
And catching my suit and tie
Walking into my cubicle
The moment I walk
Away from my institution
It’s nothing like that at all for me
We all want the life
Where we sit
Comfy
Feet kicked up
Racks coming in
But our dream
Can’t be everyone’s
Reality
I don’t know
What my future holds
Just know
This isn’t the last
You’ll hear
Of me
